Now that 3 months have gone by, I’ve reached a pivotal crossroads in terms of career, life, everything.

In 2 days I start a waitressing job.
In 14 days I shoot my third look book this month.
In 20 days I have to move and find a place to live.
In 21 days I am no longer at GQ.

So basically in a month I’ll be an “adult” and it’s a really frightening realization.

Summer’s been dope. Different then what I’m used to… but amazing regardless.
I faced a lot of changes with relationships, both romantic and not, and my own personal growth.

The decision to full time shoot and be a photographer was hard to do.
It might seem easy — after all I went to photo school, what the fuck else did I really want to do? But it was difficult nonetheless.

I was in the elevator today at Condé Nast and this woman was talking to two dudes about how she gave up being a photographer, and how difficult it is; that it’s so much self promotion and constantly putting yourself out there and I stood there thinking “you’re so fucking right.” And I said it out loud, I said “you’re right, I’m a photographer.” And they laughed (nicely) and said good luck.
I think in order to really commit to being a photographer you really have to let everything go. And full time think about making work and what your next move is. Even saying “I’m a photographer” felt weird — like I wasn’t worthy yet of claiming that’s what I do — or that’s who I am. And I haven’t done it yet completely, but I’m trying really fucking hard to get there.

The past month has been crazy, I shot a look book for Sosume and this past Sunday shot one for Jay Sabatino. In a couple weeks I will be shooting one for Married To The Mob which I’m really stoked on and have refrained from talking about. Not because I’m an asshole but, I haven’t had time to really write on here, which is upsetting, because I miss the activity on Sunday & Wednesday, I really do. So hopefully Sunday I can write about that because the Married To The Mob girls are real dope and I’m real excited about finally getting to work with the incredible and infamous Leah McSweeney.
Leah if you read this, I’m stoked if we get that blue bentley to shoot, I’m snappin my fingers your way homie.

This past Wednesday however I got to do something I’ve yet to do and am really aspiring to. I shot the actor Andrew Garfield for October NYLON and it went pretty amazing considering that is a rare subject I get to photograph.

Andrew is currently in that new facebook movie and will be the new Spiderman in 2012, so I was really looking forward. I shot it at the Crosby Hotel and thank god he was mad down to earth because it was miserably hot outside and I had dude flexing like, fall wear sweaters. We really got on, he was hilarious. I also am a sucker for British dry humor, but he was humble and insanely easy to work with. I let him take a heinous picture of me and in exchange I asked for a picture together for my memory. He even let me make a Spiderman joke. Ok I made a shit load of them. Whatever, just let me.

I had the amazing Staci Child do grooming whom I’ve wanted to work with for a while, and Paolo Nieddu style and I just got the film back this week and it looks damn good. Listen I could barely remember to take the dark slide out, I haven’t shot film since Japan so it’s miraculous it even came out, so I’m going to admit that it looks great.

here are last weeks outtakes, look for it in October NYLON.
until Sunday…