The reason I havent posted in so long is because I have not created new work. Ive been thinking a lot about what I want to do, but it is more like worrying. I have been under a constant cycle of self criticism, self acknowledgement, self self self….
Its difficult to try and think ahead when you barely have the present figured out. It is something we all have to do and avoiding it is just going to make the situation worse. I realize that I am about to pass through an important stage in my life and instead of jumping in, like you did from high school to college, you have to prepare for adulthood before it even happends, before you want it to happen. I am afraid of growing too slowly, I try to put things into perspective. Maybe I am not ready to grow, my path is somewhere else that will lead me to it, but being the best at what you do is where you put your self worth right? If you are not good at something what are you good for. Ive never felt this sense of urgency before and I dont fucking like it. Im being dramatic because isnt this how your inner monologue goes from time to time?
new work
